forgetful time

By: Shelbi Henny

Walking in this abyss
I know failure lurking at the end
fixing concoctions of what could have happened
falling into this false hope 
that needing you was natural 
even though I know leaving was necessary
holding back tears of substantial 
intuition pacing in the ritual 
I was building mountains to get away from you
pushing back my therapy to relinquish images
cold to the touch of missing you
and then it made perfect sense to pretend 
that it never existed 
I missed it
numb temptations that float
I was climbing on notions 
pressing back rain that needed to pour
drawing sunshine and rainbows in desert storms
all I can remember was the time you entered 
and the day you left